Biography of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu

I bought this book from a member of ISKCON member( a caucasian at that ) who came selling the book door to door on Bhagvatgita Jayanthi...I had brush in my mouth at 10 am in the morning and thought it was rude to go in to clean my mouth and continued to tlak to him with brush in my mouth in sign language ...gross!....after reading this book, apart from knowing th biography of this person, I didnt get the essensce of the teachings...i just cannot keep my mind from wandering and making funny smart ass remarks about getting lost in Krishna's Leela's. and find enchantment in chanting Krishnas praise..his beauty...how can i gain enlightenment if I say that Krishna has beautful eyes, dresses in gold and pearls and is blue /black in color? ". I find anuhya eating food, or dancing or shaking her legs more enchanting than anything else in this world...so is that it? i dont get it man....i reallllly dont get it....guess i am not blessed to know/explore the spiritual world...just didnt get it!.